Tough is a good word for it

Tough. I am having a tough time dealing with the fact that my family is so far away. I am having a tough time dealing with the fact that I miss out on things that they do together. I am having a tough time dealing with the fact that they miss out on things I do here in Texas. I am having a tough time dealing with the fact that they are missing out on things with Little Man.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA 00368 00819 IMG_1475I don’t think I realized how much I really miss seeing my family until they came to visit me and then went home. I have been one to say that I am not that close to my family but to be honest it is not that at all; I think that was my way of coping with the fact that I couldn’t be that close to my family. So saying I wasn’t close to them made me feel better to a point because if I wasn’t close to them then I wouldn’t miss them. In reality I miss them every minute, moment, fun times, sad times, each and everyday! The moment they drop me off at the airport when I come to visit, I instantly want to book a ticket back for the next week. The same goes for them when I drop them off when they visit. I feel bad saying I wasn’t close to them but I was just in denial.

Florida May 2008 165 IMG_4817 IMG_8906 00241I know that this is just what I have to deal with since I live in Texas and majority of my family lives in Michigan. It’s just, well, tough! I hate to say that I took them for granted but maybe I did. Having Little Man now makes me reevaluate everything. My cousin Emily (who I really see more like a sister) came to visit for a couple of days and I just dropped her off at the airport a few hours ago. I missed her the moment she walked away and I wanted to go buy a ticket to go with her.

IMG_8592 00674 00837 00355At this point I am rambling but I just miss them. So from this moment, I am going to cherish every single moment, conversation, picture, text, whatever that I get from them because they are extremely important to me. I can’t wait to the next visit!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Until next time

Love,

Jessica AKA Mrs. Ripple