Tough is a good word for it

Tough. I am having a tough time dealing with the fact that my family is so far away. I am having a tough time dealing with the fact that I miss out on things that they do together. I am having a tough time dealing with the fact that they miss out on things I do here in Texas. I am having a tough time dealing with the fact that they are missing out on things with Little Man.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA 00368 00819 IMG_1475I don’t think I realized how much I really miss seeing my family until they came to visit me and then went home. I have been one to say that I am not that close to my family but to be honest it is not that at all; I think that was my way of coping with the fact that I couldn’t be that close to my family. So saying I wasn’t close to them made me feel better to a point because if I wasn’t close to them then I wouldn’t miss them. In reality I miss them every minute, moment, fun times, sad times, each and everyday! The moment they drop me off at the airport when I come to visit, I instantly want to book a ticket back for the next week. The same goes for them when I drop them off when they visit. I feel bad saying I wasn’t close to them but I was just in denial.

Florida May 2008 165 IMG_4817 IMG_8906 00241I know that this is just what I have to deal with since I live in Texas and majority of my family lives in Michigan. It’s just, well, tough! I hate to say that I took them for granted but maybe I did. Having Little Man now makes me reevaluate everything. My cousin Emily (who I really see more like a sister) came to visit for a couple of days and I just dropped her off at the airport a few hours ago. I missed her the moment she walked away and I wanted to go buy a ticket to go with her.

IMG_8592 00674 00837 00355At this point I am rambling but I just miss them. So from this moment, I am going to cherish every single moment, conversation, picture, text, whatever that I get from them because they are extremely important to me. I can’t wait to the next visit!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Until next time

Love,

Jessica AKA Mrs. Ripple

2 thoughts on “Tough is a good word for it

  1. We only live an hour away from my parents, but we are in the process of moving closer to them because having Caroline really made me want to be closer to them. So I completely hear you–I can’t imagine being so far away! It’s hard being without that family support when you have a little one.

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